Challenge Time!

What is one thing you’ve been putting off?
Taking my weight loss goals seriously

What is one step you can take to start working on it?
Commit. Seriously, truly focus on my commitment to lose weight.

What do you need to do to prepare to fight this battle with what you have?
Remind myself how motivated I was before.

How will you tackle this issue moving forward, starting from where you are right now?
List down why this goal is important to me.


Tangible reward – new dress
Self-care reward – put money away
Social reward – host a party
Healthy reward – shop for a cool pair of workout shoes

Remember, facing your inner fears and doubts (your inmost cave) can help you gain courage and move forward on your hero’s journey.

Here are my three ways to delay giving into my food triggers:

  1. I will set a timer for 10 minutes before eating.
  2. I will take deep breaths during that time.
  3. I will listen to my tummy whether or not I’m really hungry.

3 Green Flags
Weighing myself daily
Using my good ol’ Wii Fit every morning even for at least 10 minutes
Tracking my food

3 Yellow Flags
Going out to eat more often again
Saying yes to the desserts
Allowing myself to get so hungry

3 Red Flags
Not eating at regular hours
Sleeping late hours
Not participating in the group discussions

It’s been 12 months

It’s been one year. 52 weeks and 1 day. 365 days. 8760 hours. 525,600 minutes. 31,536,000 seconds.

At exactly 11:40pm last year, our little boy went on his own heavenly journey.

We’ve been talking about you lately, more so than usual. I finally designed and had your headstone done. I put it off for so long because doing so felt so final. But the truth is, you are gone. Yet you do live in our hearts.

You brought love and laughter in our lives. You’d have your moments of zoomies, running around in figure eights while we watched you. You sat on the couch with us while we watched TV (including “Game of Thrones”, but not “The Walking Dead” – you watched that show so seriously that you sat so close to the TV).

One year later, we still miss you so, so very much. To this day, you’re still my sunshine, my only sunshine.


Happy 15th birthday in heaven, our little Zack!

You were in my mind today, little Zack. You celebrated your birthday in heaven. You weren’t with Mommy and Daddy anymore, but we remember your birthday. We miss you everyday.

I miss listening to your snores when you fall asleep. I miss the weight of your body on my legs while you sleep. I miss cleaning up your face in the morning, feeding you, brushing your hair. I miss your vanilla scent. I miss seeing you adorable face. I miss talking to you. I miss hearing your sighs, scoffs and sneezes. Really, my little baby, Mommy misses you more than ever. Daddy does too. You’re always a part of our conversations.

In your memory, yesterday we accepted to foster two – not just one – shih tzus who have been living in dire straits. The two furbabies had issues, one in particular had been severely abused and neglected. The other one, a sweet little girl, was basically used to breed. She seems to have some neurological issues. When I read her previous owner’s description of her, the owner made it seem like she was a problem pet. But since I met her yesterday, she’s been nothing but a snugglebug.

Today, I woke up feeling overwhelmed. We had no experience dealing with furbabies with behavioral issues. What did I get us into? I was the one who kept wanting to foster. Now that we have the chance to do so, I was getting overwhelmed. Then I saw them fall asleep and snore. Based on what I knew of their past lives, sleep was a luxury for those two. It was comforting to see them that relaxed.

They were a good reminder to me that we didn’t do you wrong. We love you the best way we know how. We love you with every heartbeat of our hearts. I hope you know that we always had best intentions for you. You will always be our best little boy, the little angel of my heart. Our lives were blessed the moment you entered our lives. Happy birthday, my little one, my sunshine.